Showing posts with label angels. Show all posts
Showing posts with label angels. Show all posts

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

All Things Possible!

Yes, one and a half months ago I ran my first 5K. That was huge to me. But it cannot touch Saturday's feat. I completed a 1/2 marathon.

Anyone who knows me, knows that I have a bad back and knees. They also know that I signed up for this run back in December when I had not so much as run a 1/4 mile in two years. But Anita asked and I said yes.

Well, I honestly admit that I did not practice like I was supposed to for the race. I was either too cold, too late, or I was too tired, so I did not start practicing until February. I had my first 5K scheduled in March and had a big fall two days before the 3 mile run. But, I did it anyway and was fine. In fact I was proud of myself. I had run my first race. But the next day I was tingling and numb all over. I had to hang upside down on an inversion machine just to stop the pain and then lay on the floor for twenty minutes. I was a mess.

Over the course of the month, I was taking Motrin and/or Naproxin around the clock. I had all but stopped running and had told everyone that I would not be running in the race in June.

Before I knew it, it was June -- my girfriend arrived bringing along with her stories from her last few races of other women who were ill prepared but yet still tried. She also offered me other walk/run ideas. I listened. I heard. I thought about how much that race meant to me. It was a bucket list item. And on top of that, I loved seeing the pride on my husband’s face when he told others that I was going to attempt it. Needless to say, I easily took the bait (it did not help that the race cost me over 100 dollars). I was going to at least start. Since I had sore knees and a stiff neck, I told myself I would play it safe and run a mile, maybe even three, just to say I ran in it. I suited up -- pinned on my number and got in line with 3000 other overzealous people. 

It was a wine country event so I figured I could run a mile or two and then go back and drown myself in my sorrows until my friend crossed the finish line. 

I lined up, the gun went off and we ran. 

I felt okay. I was listening to my body, and I heard nothing. But I listened to my head and was told to stop before I do hurt something. I thought about a little more and decided that I had to take care of myself because my family needed me. I would stop at the second mile marker.

That’s when a lady ran passed and got in front of me. Her shirt was not covered in endorsements, but a message instead: I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (Phil. 4:13).

Whoa! Is that message for me, I thought. I continued to question my abilities, my sanity, and whether or not I should even be trying. But the message kept coming into my mind.  I quickly realized that that message was absolutely for me.

I had been hurting so bad the week before that I was popping pain pills like candy. But that shirt was a sign to keep pressing on. Though I have herniated discs, bad knees, and a chronic achy back, I felt nothing that day. I took my time and was surrounded by the angels in the back: women half my height and double my width, men with limps, people way older than me both walking and running. How can you stop with them for inspiration? So I didn't.

I ran 11 of the 13 miles and walked two. And yes I finished the 1/2 Marathon. I eventually realized that it was not so I could gloat, but so I could stand as a testament to the power of the Lord. And I believe that I was allowed to do so to inspire someone else that if you believe and put your trust in the Lord, all things are possible!

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Tenure



Year one
I danced a mean tango
With him.
I looked into his Eyes
That would not
Could not
Look back.
I pushed.
He shoved.
I won,
Because he won.
He smiled,
Made friends,
Sang the Faerie song
One Midsummer’s Night Eve
Side by side
With the sighted
While he
Was blind.


 In September
Of year two,
I met his genius
And watched it
Slowly slide
From A
To F,
From sweet
To hard,
Clean
To disheveled.
Flippant… cold.
Dancing eyes turned dark
Empty.
I heard myself ask
for missing work
And cringed.
I knew
I was watching
Him watch
His mother
Slowly Fading,
Body failing
Slowly dying
In May.



Year three
Brought an Angel.
Tall
Graceful.
She spread her wings
And wrapped
Lost souls,
Outcasts,
Cool kids,
In the light of her smile –
A child
Saving children
From others
And themselves.
A child
With an adult illness
Ever smiling
while checking numbers.
Teaching the teacher
Patience, tolerance.
Mission complete,
She died.
An angel on loan
From heaven,
Leaving me to teach.


Tenured.